I feel a quandry, dearest 4.3 readers.
It's time for my second round of Starbucks applications to go out. There are also several full-time positions open at Stanford and at SC. What do I do?
I want the hours and flexibility of Starbucks. Also, I love coffee.
I want the money of a full-time job.
I feel guilty not using my Masters.
I want to be with Birdy during the day and watch her grow.
I want to be able to pay down our debt and maybe save for a house.
I don't want to put Birdy in daycare.
I don't want to pay a lot to commute, if anything.
I always thought that I would stay at home until my kid(s) went to kindergarten. I want my kids to be raised by me, instead of a daycare employee. Nothing against daycare employees, but its important to me to be there for Birdy. Well, either me or Brandon. Conversely, its good for Birdy to be with other little kids and be able to socialize and play with other kiddos. I also like money. Money is good.
If anyone has any advice, please to share it with me so at least I feel like I'm making a somewhat rational decision whatever I choose.